bad example

she says shes embarassed
to talk to me
when shes been drinking

she says
Im a bad example
because not drinking
is so easy for me

she says I just dont get it

I know shes young
and that she dont know
what she dont know
but to say that
I dont get it

she has no idea

theres a special section of hell
waiting for me

Ive done things on the bottle
that neither God nor man
can forgive
and someday Ive got to pay that debt

and though I know
theres no escaping
those eternal flames

I have no desire
to return to the hell on earth
I created for myself
back in my drinking days

Im trying to do right

I thought getting sober
and staying sober
might help someone else too

maybe show them
it aint easy
but
it aint impossible either


do I hide my struggle too well
should I fall off
just to prove Im no better
than she is

maybe I should drop by her place
drink all her booze
piss on her floor
then go wrap her car around something

will that make me the real deal

will it tarnish
this tin halo
she imagines
on my head


I know
that Im still more sinner than saint
but
Im gonna keep trying to do right
for as long as I can

cause I know
these wax wings
wont last long
where Im going